Depressed and stuck

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Cor asked 6 years ago

My ex and I broke up a month ago, he walked away like it was nothing. Hasn’t spoken a word since and I haven’t either, know he wasn’t right for me, but I long for the company at the same time too. It really tore me up, I feel so rejected and worthless to anyone. It seemed like after that, my friends suddenly didn’t and still don’t ever hang out or talk, even if I initiate it….which is painful since I was there for them when they each had problems with relationships. I do talk to my best friend but I feel so depressed and lonely. I have bad social anxiety (like so bad I’m nervous about the judgement I could get from writing this) and feel like I’ll never be able to meet a great guy. I keep attracting the same guys, even when I don’t want to attract these types. I feel the same way about friends, it’s hard to meet anyone when I have strong social anxiety. I’m starting to feel hopeless. I’m stuck in a vicious cycle and I hear all the time how you just have to force yourself out of it but I can’t seem to do that. I’m starting to hate life. Has anyone gone through this? I know the breakup was for the best, but at the same time I feel like the world is crashing around me.