I’m miserable with him, I’m miserable without him

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JonGB asked 6 years ago

So I’ve been with this guy for almost a year and a half. Recently, I’ve been feeling like I can’t forgive him for the past. He had a drink problem, which led to him cheating on me many times. We kept on going and tried to move past it. I broke up with him about a month ago. Last weekend we met up to chat and we agreed to give it another shot; A fresh start and he would give it his all. 5 days later, I ended it (a few hours ago).

We have agreed to stay friends because he’s become my best friend and I’m his. But this is hard. I’m upset at the thought of never being with him in that relationship way but when we get back together I’m equally as miserable. He tried changing everything that I said made me feel like this and it just didn’t seem to work. But if it’s not meant to work and I’m no longer “in love” with him, why do I get so upset about breaking up?

I’m so confused. I don’t know what’s wrong or right!