I can’t pick. To be with the one who has been with me for a decade (thats right a decade) and is still waiting for me even if long distance or be with someone who saved my life literally and utterly. He saved me from misery and not saved me from because I miss being with the first one. It has been messing with my moods and my family has been suspicious of me, I don’t wanna tell them or they get me to marry one of them & then pressures me into decision making fast. I’ve been with the new one for 2 years. Both guys are awesome and none of them deserve to feel hurt.